Faith

Have you ever heard someone say Faith is things hope for and things not seen. I can not see faith, but I surely have a lot of if. How-ever there are times when Satan would like to come and destroy me. He makes me think I am worthless, or not worthy of anyone or anything. 

Some of you know and other don't but I suffer from anxiety and depression. At one time it really had a grab on me. It took me to a darkness that I can not even explain. It was as if I was in a room full of people and they all looked down at me, I couldn't understand anything they said. (another language) and the room walls were caving down toward me. I could not escape.

I am doing a lot better now. But lately, those feelings have been coming down at me. But my faith is stronger today then it was back then. I don't give up as fast as I used to. I fight harder and I pray longer. God helps me see others around me that I do not want to be like. These people as much as they mean to me or don't even know me, make me want to try harder. God puts people in your life for a reason being for yourself or for them. I don't turn people away when they want to talk, and I let them talk about themselves. Questions they ask I will answer as much as I can. Tho at times when I am tired or exhausted from a long day I try to walk away and at those times I feel as if I failed them some way. but know I do not mean to. I really am just tired and exhausted. 

Even tho these feelings never go away, and someday are harder then others. To be honest there are times that evil wins me over to a point. But yet he NEVER truly wins. Why, if he did I wouldn't be here to write this.

Faith is my motto along with pressing on. So I press on with Faith to get me from day to day. I hope I help you out as much as some of you have helped me out.

Much love
until next time
Press on w/Faith

My son has made it to the Fleet! I am so proud of him. He's a big boy now, yet he is still my little baby! What makes this so sweet is that he is loving what he is doing, and doing what he loves. Makes this Momma even more proud and happy.

My daughter Courtney and her husband Brandan is now proud parents of a little girl. That means I am now a Grandma!! How exciting!

I am still a student, and take care of my family at home. I get such joy out of doing for them.

I am so happy that I live by my motto, Holding on to press on with Faith. If it wasn't for faith, and Christ I wouldn't be here to see all this happen. I hold on to every little blessing that comes my way. Each blessing gets me up in the morning and ready to ROCK the day away.

I have been through a lot of struggles this past 2012 ending the year and beginning the year with more struggles, but I will not let those struggles get to me, (even if I do sometimes cry at night, that's between God and me) but I know that those struggles will only make me stronger and relying on God himself even more, Again that is where FAITH comes into play again in my life.

I read a book quite a few years ago, I'd say about 7 yrs ago all about Faith, I passed that book series on just for the fact it made such an impact on me. I never knew that today that book would be in the back of my mind each day. Faith isn't something that you can be taught. Faith is something you learn as you walk. Faith is more then just putting one foot in front of the other, it's a living out daily not knowing where that next step could lead you but knowing that there is something GREAT as you walk each step, even if that step puts you in the middle of a storm.

Living Life, Living Hope, but most of all Living Faith.

Shannon Sparrow